Looking back

I have some weighty long posts I want to write but today is not that day. Honestly I haven't got much to say but I promised myself I'd write, so here I am.

I saw my therapist yesterday, for the first time in over 2 months. She was amazed at how much better I'm doing. I can hardly remember what a mess I was this summer. Oh wow, it was terrible. I'm so glad I'm back on solid ground.

I'm scared of being back there, having to start over. Not sure when/if I'll consider stopping the medication, even though there are some significant side effects. 

I submitted my 2nd grant today, as well as an IRB proposal. Next up: paper #1 (the plan is to submit 2 by the end of the year). I've also got a pilot grant (small, 3 page proposal) I want to submit, that's due in early December.

I've been more productive the past few months than I was in the past YEAR. In retrospect, I realize I was depressed for that whole year. Its hard to see when you're in it, but its so obvious looking back.