Thanks for the comments on my last post, lovely supportive, validating comments! Just what I need right now.
B has been having some...difficulties. It started before KG, so its not related. I actually thought it got better for a while with the excitement of a new school, but now its returned/gotten worse. He still loves school...just maybe school doesn't love him? I'm not going to go into it, but we are seeking outside help.
This is stressing me out and dredging up some of my worst fears as a parent. Lots of spiral-of-doom thinking going on in my head. Not good.
did I mention I hate holidays? I DO. I tried to embrace them last year and it was an epic failure. I much prefer the joys of an ordinary day to all the over-hyped built up and certainly unmet expectations of a holiday. And Halloween on a freaking SATURDAY? So now there is pressure for the WHOLE DAY to be FUN and SPECIAL. B (who forms unrealistic expectations and doesn't handle the unmet ones well at all) is sure to be in rare form.
On top of it all, I'm sick. I was sick last week with what felt like the
worst cold ever---colds don't usually knock me out like this. I
basically went to work, did the dinner/bed routine, and collapsed for 4
straight days. Then I felt amazing other than some congestion. My energy
was back, I had a great weekend, and then I started getting insane
sinus headaches, coughs, and that tiiiiirrrreeeed feeling yesterday.
I'm supposed to run a 5K Saturday morning. Bleurgh. The plan was to work on speed leading up to the 5K. Ha. I've run maybe twice in the past 2 months? And slowly, at that. I know I can run the distance, I just don't want to embarrass myself with my time.
OK, back to work.