Thursday, October 29, 2020

A Month

Its been a month since I wrote here, and what a month its been. By that I mean---terrible. I fell into a very very deep hole of sadness and anxiety for a whole host of reasons, many of which are still going on. I'm still very much in that dark place, but I'm starting to---every now and again---see a sliver of light in the future. 

I knew I was feeling more like myself when I opened up my planner after several weeks ignoring it, and made a list for today that included writing here AND making monthly goals for November. I've been just doing the things I HAVE to each day, without really making a plan for long term projects or even thinking about what I may WANT to do. What I really really want to do is feel better. And I know some things I need to do to get there. I just needed to climb slightly out of the hole to be able to actually recognize how far down I'd fallen.  

7 comments:

  1. *socially distanced fully masked outdoor air hugs*

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  2. Oh Ana, I am so sorry you’re going through that. Sounds like survival mode was the right decision. Virtual hug.

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  3. Hugs. Happy to hear you're climbing out now.

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  4. I'm sorry. It's been such a rough year in so many ways.

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  5. Thinking of you and hope you can keep climbing out. Also virtual COVID-free hugs!

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  6. Oh dear, so sorry to hear that. Glad you are at the point where you can see the glimmer, and may things continue to move in the right direction.

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